[ Everything feels so... out of place, like she isn't even sitting here. Nothing feels right; her breathing is stuttered and shaky and panic clenches around her chest so tightly that she feels sick. But she keeps her fingers twisted into her dress, forcing herself to just breathe and listen to Husk. At the very least, she can focus on his voice - grasping onto it as she's always done before.
But it's still all so hard to hear. That Ginerva was alive, that she tried to kill others, and she has to once again remind herself to take breaths.
Then he tells her she's dead, that he killed her.
Now there was no chance for her to ever meet that woman in this life. ]
S-she's... dead. [ Lapis repeats that back, before her breath stutters in a sob. Her hands fly to cover her mouth as she tries to take deep breaths, her mind reeling - it's all still so much to take in.
But she's dead. She won't be her tool anymore - it's a freedom she thought she would never get. ]
I-I... Sorry, thank you- [ Lapis knows how badly things would've gone, if they met again. That this distance has allowed her to see what this woman had done to her in a life before.
But it was still the woman who raised her, once upon a time. Her tears are both of relief and to mourn the woman she once was. ]
[Husk waits patiently, allowing Lapis to try and process all of this. He understands it's a lot, a huge, weighty, terrible thing. He wishes he could lift it all away from her, but he can't. He's done all he can, but removing that monster from the equation, but the rest? The figuring out how to heal from this? Well, he can only support her- the rest of it has to be on Lapis herself.
When the sob breaks, though, he shifts a hand to curl around her arm. He gives her arm a single, brief squeeze. Understanding, comfort, support: all rolled into one. ]
Anytime. 'S my job.
[ Doing what he can to make her as safe as possible, which admittedly isn't much in a world like this one. He has no intention of telling Lapis the drivel the old woman spouted- he doesn't want her to be hurt by that monster any more than she has been, but he does sigh.]
It was the only way around it. She wasn't- there wasn't much left to fuckin' reason with even if I wanted to.
[ The squeeze to her arm helps to ground her, giving her another thing to focus on amongst the panic and sheer... sadness? Relief? It's such a dizzying mix of emotions right now, and how she's sobbing right now doesn't help.
Her chest aches, tight and constricting in a way that she hasn't felt for years, and she reaches to rub at her eyes as she tries to calm down. Just take a deep breath, in and out. Husk's words don't surprise her thought - even before, she was... difficult to speak to. It was one of the many reasons why she was apprehensive of the old woman. ]
How... [ Her words trail off as her breath stutters, but she gives herself a moment - taking a deep breath and trying again. It's such a harsh shock that she's already feeling her head pound from it, but she can work past this. ]
[As Lapis struggles to control her breathing, as she tries to swim through the depth of emotion she's been dunked into, Husk stays by her side. After a moment, the wing closest to her shifts, wrapping around her back to give her extra comfort. A shield from all the bullshit happening in her own head.
He can't do anything to undo what the Order has done here- nor can he undo what that monster of a woman did to her in the past. But he can be here and he guesses that's got to be enough. Showing her she's not alone.]
I don't know exactly. From the looks of things? A long fuckin' time. Felt like they'd just left her there to rot.
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But it's still all so hard to hear. That Ginerva was alive, that she tried to kill others, and she has to once again remind herself to take breaths.
Then he tells her she's dead, that he killed her.
Now there was no chance for her to ever meet that woman in this life. ]
S-she's... dead. [ Lapis repeats that back, before her breath stutters in a sob. Her hands fly to cover her mouth as she tries to take deep breaths, her mind reeling - it's all still so much to take in.
But she's dead. She won't be her tool anymore - it's a freedom she thought she would never get. ]
I-I... Sorry, thank you- [ Lapis knows how badly things would've gone, if they met again. That this distance has allowed her to see what this woman had done to her in a life before.
But it was still the woman who raised her, once upon a time. Her tears are both of relief and to mourn the woman she once was. ]
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When the sob breaks, though, he shifts a hand to curl around her arm. He gives her arm a single, brief squeeze. Understanding, comfort, support: all rolled into one. ]
Anytime. 'S my job.
[ Doing what he can to make her as safe as possible, which admittedly isn't much in a world like this one. He has no intention of telling Lapis the drivel the old woman spouted- he doesn't want her to be hurt by that monster any more than she has been, but he does sigh.]
It was the only way around it. She wasn't- there wasn't much left to fuckin' reason with even if I wanted to.
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Her chest aches, tight and constricting in a way that she hasn't felt for years, and she reaches to rub at her eyes as she tries to calm down. Just take a deep breath, in and out. Husk's words don't surprise her thought - even before, she was... difficult to speak to. It was one of the many reasons why she was apprehensive of the old woman. ]
How... [ Her words trail off as her breath stutters, but she gives herself a moment - taking a deep breath and trying again. It's such a harsh shock that she's already feeling her head pound from it, but she can work past this. ]
How long was she... down there?
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He can't do anything to undo what the Order has done here- nor can he undo what that monster of a woman did to her in the past. But he can be here and he guesses that's got to be enough. Showing her she's not alone.]
I don't know exactly. From the looks of things? A long fuckin' time. Felt like they'd just left her there to rot.